Sunday, September 13, 2009 Y
Dear Me..
Its Weekends.. & I always stayed home during the weekends & always feel bored in the weekends.. Why..?? Cause i don't have u by my side..
Didn't do much today just that watch anime the whole damn weekends & day in my room on my bed.. Whats the point of going out if im not going out with my love ones.. Where else my love one is having fun out there..
I rather talk about my love life then my life at home.. Nothing to talk about actually..
Hmm.. Where should i begin.. I guess you really don't know how i feel about you.. How i have change for you.. How deeply am i in love towards you.. All this time our love is just a fake?? Those years spent were just a play make up by our feelings..?? I really don't know what to feel or what to say now just have to go through depression mode for awhile..
I really really do care for you.. Do concern for you.. But whats the point when you yourself don't even bother about me.. Don't even care about me.. As if i don't exist.. If only i can show you how my heart shape right now.. The pain i go through every night.. The tears that keep on flowing every night.. The feeling of being not love..
Who do i cry out.. Who do i seek to share my pain.. My agony.. My miserable life with.. If its not for you.. But what are you doing now.. Falling for your ex... Isn't falling for your ex will make you love him in the end..?? I really don't understand you.. What do u seek..?? What do u want to gain..?? What do you accomplish by doing this to me & yourself..?? Do you feel happy treating me this way..?? Do you feel happy by doing all those things towards me..?? Do you..??
You met your ex.. When i was still in love with you.. When you still treat me like we are together.. Why.. Why couldnt you just tell me that you have found someone to make you happy.. To make you smile.. To make you laugh.. Where do i go from here.. I am really lost without you.. All i can do now is cry out my pain.. My suffering in this blog.. In this webpage..
All this time.. I keep questioning myself.. Do you really love me in the first place..?? Do you really cherish me in the first place..?? Shouldn't love be forgiving & accepting one another even though we have done shit or treat each other like hell.. Shouldn't love be beautiful rather then sadness.. Pain & suffering.. Im lonely.. Very lonely without you..
I guess thats all i can say for now cause the story is very long..
P.S: I Believe If You Are Patience Enough & Have Faith In The Person You Love Or Yourself.. Your Love One Will Come Back.. I Believe That You Will Come Back To Me.. BAby_Haydil
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