Saturday, September 26, 2009 Y
Dear Cuddly
Wow.. Its been a long time since i use the my cuddly name.. What does it mean.. It means that I'm half way to recovery.. Just need to adjust a little here & there..
As for today.. Woke up really early cause had an interview as a part-time Sats officer.. Customer Service Agent(CSA) :)
Woke up at 7am in the morning.. I know its early.. Maybe too eager to for the interview or too eager to go with HAYDIL.. Hmm.. Either way is possible.. Hehe.. Bath the change to my smartest outfit there is & at the same time have to wake up little miss HAYDIL cause she is hard at waking up.. Aiyo yo.. Had a problem finding my ez-link & time was running late for me.. Manage to find it after 15min of searching..
Met up with HAYDIL at her block to pick her up.. Gentleman mah.. Hehe.. Heard her footsteps & smile was running all over my face.. When i saw her.. Inside my mind was WOW...!!! Jackpot.. Hehe.. I don't know.. Maybe was happy that we were going together since its has been a long time we went out just the both of us.. Miss those days.. Really..
Reach the interview place i can already feel the tension.. The nervousness building up inside me.. But i kept my cool.. Hehe.. Cause it was my first jod interview.. Never have i go for job interview in my life when i went to look for a job.. After the interview i felt really happy actually & wanted to go for more interview cause i just love to interact with people.. :)
After the interview went to Food Culture had luch together with HAYDIL.. Ate Chicken Chop Fried Rice while she ate the usual Fried Handmade Noodles.. She didnt finish the food lorr.. But packet it as not to waste the food.. While we were walking.. We can feel like all eyes are on us.. Aiyo yo.. They never see people wear office attire before izzit.. Aiyo yo.. Walk like we were once again together if you know what i mean.. Hehe.. Then inside the bus was all fine when there is a call from your handphone.. Nevermind.. Don't want to say about it.. :)
A very short bt memorable day for me as i treasure every moment spent together.. :)
LOVE LIFE
Hmm.. My love life is very very complicated.. & i mean complicated like hell.. To start of with.. I really really mean when i say i still love you & its hard for me to move on cause i really really treasure the 2 years plus relation.. I really don't know whether im doing is the right thing or the wrong thing.. I know its the wrong thing by meeting you & stuff.. But i need you by my side.. I do feel the jealousy.. I do feel the sadness when your BF called you or message you..
When will this heart feel with joy & happiness again.. When will it be retain as it was before.. Sometime i think are u really happy with him.. Cause it seems that you are.. don't even bother looking for me cause im the one looking for you.. Sometimes i think.. What do you really want in your life.. Me..?? Him..?? or waiting for something to happen then only you realise..
I am happy now that we are still contacting & we are still meeting each other.. But what i really hope is that meeting you won't have to be secracy.. So you don't have to be afraid of anything or something.. I really appreaciate the time we spent each time we meet each other.. I seems happy.. You seems happy but at the same time busy with your Bf..
What am i blabbering about.. I should be happy for you.. I should be happy for my self.. The word SHOULD.... Understand that..
[110607] Take me back to the first time we seal our lips.....
P.S: My life is complicated then you all think.. Please..
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