Sunday, July 19, 2009 Y
Dear ME..
How long am i going to hold on..?? am i holding on too long or it is just that i love her soo much that i can't bear to leave her.. I am finding the answer that is impossible to find, but i am going to try and find it no matter what..
I am fighting.. Not physically but mentally.. Its painfull.. Its Hurting.. Its Unbearable.. Its out of control sooner or later. It keep building up than going away. Everyday life is like a everyday struggle to me.. My Family.. My Friends.. My love One.. My Siblings.. Is the burden on my shoulder that heavy??
Nobody knows how i feel inside.. Never will.. Is my heart going to explode by the pain that i have hold on since young.. Since i keep being patient.. What is the cure to my sickness??
I can only turn to myself since i don't want to trouble the people around me.. Will my shoulder be lighter?? Im doing my best to hold on.. But im at the edge of my finger tips..
Well.. I Hope that im not going to be insane.. :)
About today.. Nothing much to do.. Just do house chores then bath.. After bath went to a wedding thingy few blocks away from my house with my dad.. Then thats about all.. :)
P.s: MY Friends.. My GF.. My Family.. My Surrouding.. I need your help.. I cant do it on my own..
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